For most of my 59 years on the planet earth, I have been trying to get it right. Some might look at my history and see glimmers of hope, others might actually say I did get some of it right. And, in many ways, I did. I survived a broken marriage, a terrible downward spiral with drugs and alcohol, and a lost faith in God, rediscovered about 12 years ago, and now going in directions that I never dreamed possible.
Which brings me to this blog and this first post. It's not that I haven't done some things right in my life, and done some things wrong for that matter, the realization I'm starting to have is that being a slave to "getting it right" is a terrible waste of time and energy, mine and yours.
I'm beginning to realize that try as I might, in the words of Jeremiah (the prophet, not the bullfrog), my heart will always be deceitful above everything else, desperately sick and beyond understanding(Jer. 17:9). The seat of all my emotions, all my planning, all my dreams, all my values, is in the final analysis so badly skewed, I can't begin to make sense out of much of anything, let alone achieving the illusion of getting it right.
Left there, one would expect a sense of despair but strangely enough, I have discovered and am discovering a new sense of freedom, a light heartedness, a growing joy, that it is okay to be . . . skewed.
It's okay because I am forgiven and accepted for who I am with all my flaws, and trust me, the list is long.
So, over the next few days and weeks, I want to explore this notion of being forgiven. I have chosen to blog about it because if any of you out there happen across this site, perhaps you will join me too in discovering the freedom of forgiveness and together, we can shed some light on our collective journey.
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